ledofthezep Posted February 21, 2005 Report Share Posted February 21, 2005 No shit either. 4 1/2 years & she throws it away. Never even saw it coming...one night as she has in the past 3 years told me about how much I meant to her & how much she couldn't wait to get married...blafuck'nbla...then overnight she changes her mind & says she wants to figure out if this is really what she wants. Evidentally her friends can't be my friends like mine have been hers & she can't have friends & me at the same time. Pretty fuck'n selfish, huh. But whatever, I never had a clue...had finally came to terms that she was who I wanted for the rest of my fucked up life...shit, I was going to ask her to frigg'n marry me this fucking week, she pulls this shit & it definately wasn't because she knew, I'd told absolutely no one. But like I told her, it's damn good to know now. It just sucks to know she was lying to me all this time & it hurts that she couldn't be honest with me, because I've for damn sure been 100% honest with her; whether she liked it or not. I guess nothing's really ever as good as it seems. So yeah, life for me has pretty much sucked these past few days...don't realize what you'll miss until it's gone. At least I know I gave it my all and have no regrets; in the end, I love her enough as a friend to know that I just want her to be happy, if it's without me, well...it's her loss. I thank my lucky stars I never asked her to marry me & that we don't have any kids. But we're both still young too. I've learned soo much about myself in these past few days & I'm a stronger person because of this hell she's putting me through. Anyhoo...just had to vent, I know my HQ fam is always out there willing to listen. Thank God for FLAW & their Endagered Species album. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
iceman Posted February 21, 2005 Report Share Posted February 21, 2005 Tough, but its good to hear you have a more positive than negative outlook on the situation. AND you ride a banshee, so theres plenty of other girls out there. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sredish Posted February 21, 2005 Report Share Posted February 21, 2005 Didn't she do this to you once before? Dammit Led, sorry to hear. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ledofthezep Posted February 21, 2005 Author Report Share Posted February 21, 2005 Tough, but its good to hear you have a more positive than negative outlook on the situation. AND you ride a banshee, so theres plenty of other girls out there. 327189[/snapback] Didn't she do this to you once before? Dammit Led, sorry to hear. 327191[/snapback] thnx man. Not really...there was a time when I had to tell her that I wasn't ready to get married because I didn't see the need to fresh out of school basically. But it was because I was honest & she didn't really like that, but came to accept the fact that I wasn't going to bullshit her, she understood where I was coming from after I came clean and shit got much better after I let myself tell her how I really felt, which was nothing less than before. Our relationship grew stronger by the day after that, until the other day when she told me to fuck off basically. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PUSH THE THROTTLE Posted February 21, 2005 Report Share Posted February 21, 2005 Damn that really sucks to hear. Finally ready for the big step and she Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ledofthezep Posted February 21, 2005 Author Report Share Posted February 21, 2005 Not for sure yet. I'm getting ready to rebuild the EX, we'll see. May just hold off. I don't even want to look at it to be honest with you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MudSlinger09 Posted February 21, 2005 Report Share Posted February 21, 2005 damn man , that sucks , im sorry to hear that Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tithead Posted February 21, 2005 Report Share Posted February 21, 2005 sorry to hear about that man, but as they say over here.... plenty more fish in the sea. look at it this way though....... more banshee riding time! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Holyman Posted February 21, 2005 Report Share Posted February 21, 2005 I thought you might a new contribution... http://www.bansheehq.com/forums/index.php?...st=40&p=327252& Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rockgc9 Posted February 21, 2005 Report Share Posted February 21, 2005 That really sucks. Sorry to hear. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cotton eyed Joe Posted February 21, 2005 Report Share Posted February 21, 2005 No shit either. 4 1/2 years & she throws it away. Never even saw it coming...one night as she has in the past 3 years told me about how much I meant to her & how much she couldn't wait to get married...blafuck'nbla...then overnight she changes her mind & says she wants to figure out if this is really what she wants. Evidentally her friends can't be my friends like mine have been hers & she can't have friends & me at the same time. Pretty fuck'n selfish, huh. But whatever, I never had a clue...had finally came to terms that she was who I wanted for the rest of my fucked up life...shit, I was going to ask her to frigg'n marry me this fucking week, she pulls this shit & it definately wasn't because she knew, I'd told absolutely no one. But like I told her, it's damn good to know now. It just sucks to know she was lying to me all this time & it hurts that she couldn't be honest with me, because I've for damn sure been 100% honest with her; whether she liked it or not. I guess nothing's really ever as good as it seems. So yeah, life for me has pretty much sucked these past few days...don't realize what you'll miss until it's gone. At least I know I gave it my all and have no regrets; in the end, I love her enough as a friend to know that I just want her to be happy, if it's without me, well...it's her loss. I thank my lucky stars I never asked her to marry me & that we don't have any kids. But we're both still young too. I've learned soo much about myself in these past few days & I'm a stronger person because of this hell she's putting me through. Anyhoo...just had to vent, I know my HQ fam is always out there willing to listen. Thank God for FLAW & their Endagered Species album. 327187[/snapback] A good thing to remember and keep in the front of your head is her leaving is about her, not you. SHE didn't want to be there, and SHE wanted to leave. That has to do with her plain and simple. Find yourself someone that wants to stick around and not bullshit or tell half truths or let her friends make her mind up for her. I've been there, and to this day there is only 1 friend of my wifes that I can even stand. The others have "creative" names (read: string of obscenities) that I refer to them as. I'm sure it would make a truck driver blush. Then they have the gall to say "Why doesn't Stan like me?" DEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRR...dumb bitch. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
racer Posted February 21, 2005 Report Share Posted February 21, 2005 sorry to hear that led, but the HQmily (is that a new word?) is here for ya. just sell that turdhundred ex and drop the cheese on a break up present for yourself. if you need anyone to help drown your sorrows contact me and the clarks and well road trip some weekend! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
banshees and beers Posted February 21, 2005 Report Share Posted February 21, 2005 That sucks man, if she ever comes back for a quick like they all do. Stick it in her pooper Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ledofthezep Posted February 21, 2005 Author Report Share Posted February 21, 2005 A good thing to remember and keep in the front of your head is her leaving is about her, not you. SHE didn't want to be there, and SHE wanted to leave. That has to do with her plain and simple. Find yourself someone that wants to stick around and not bullshit or tell half truths or let her friends make her mind up for her. I've been there, and to this day there is only 1 friend of my wifes that I can even stand. The others have "creative" names (read: string of obscenities) that I refer to them as. I'm sure it would make a truck driver blush. Then they have the gall to say "Why doesn't Stan like me?" DEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRR...dumb bitch. 327279[/snapback] That's exactly it. But the thing that's fucking with me is that it was an overnight 180. I don't know her friends because she's never allowed me to get to know them....but you can be damn sure she knows everything about anyone I run around with. It's her loss. She'll see,..if she thinks that she's going to find a guy with half a nut hair compared to me at a fucking bar or club, she's got a lot coming to her. if you need anyone to help drown your sorrows contact me and the clarks and well road trip some weekend! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bansheefreak Posted February 21, 2005 Report Share Posted February 21, 2005 well led look at the bright side.. now you can get some strange!!! plus its a good thing this happened before you got married ..it would have been much worse if you were married then she pulled this shit on ya... but to you having invest 4 yrs and wanted more this will be hard to get over so justkeep cranking the music and riding the banshee time will heal the wounds and if you find some pussy it will heal even faster.... soak it in cider... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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